I was raised in a valley
There were shadows and death
Got out alive
But with scars I can't forget

This kid back in school
Subdued and shy
Went by, day by day
Unseen by most eyes

I don't know what it was
That made a piece of her die
Took a girl to the forest,
Slaughtered her with a scythe

Stamped on her face,
An impression in the dirt
Do you think the silence
Makes a good man convert?

We all have our horrors
And our demons to fight,
But how can I win
When I'm paralysed?

They crawl up on my bed
Wrap their fingers round my throat
Is this what I get
For the choices that I've made?

God forgive me for all of my sins,
God forgive me for everything

Don't go, I can't do this on my own
Save me from the ones
That haunt me in the night
I can't live with myself
So stay with me tonight
Don't go.

If I let you in,
You'd just want out
If I tell you the truth,
You'd vie for a lie

If I spilt my guts,
It would make a mess we can't clean up
If you follow me,
we'd only get lost

If you try to get closer,
We'd only lose touch
Yes you already know too much
And you're not going anywhere

Tell me that you need me, 'cause I love you so much.
Tell me that you love me, 'cause I need you so much.
Tell me that you need me, 'cause I love you so much.
Say you'll never leave me, 'cause I need you so much.

How long have I been in this storm? So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form. Water's getting harder to tread, with these waves crashing over my head.If I could just see you, everything would be all right.If I'd see you, this darkness would turn to light.

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown. So why am I ten feet under and upside down? Barely surviving has become my purpose. Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface.

It kills me that I hurt you this way. The worst part is that I didn't even know.Now there's a million reasons for you to go, but if you can find a reason to stay,I'll do whatever it takes to turn this around. And if you give me a chance, believe that I can change, I'll keep us together. Whatever it takes.

"You gotta let me inside even though it hurts. Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see. You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

Remember the time I told you the way that I felt? That I'd be lost without you and never find myself? Let's hold onto each other above everything else. Start over.

Help.

I'm not sad. I'm just not really that happy. Not there yet. And I don't know if I ever will be again. I think I can't. Not anymore. Cause all I keep doing is searching.

"Your secrets keep you safe, your lies keep you alive"

I got these questions always running through my head
So many things that I would like to understand
If we are born to die and we all die to live,
Then what's the point of living life if it just contradicts?

I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down,
The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts, I shook the hand of doubt
Running from my past, I'm praying "Feet don't fail me now"

I've lost my goddamn mind
It happens all the time
I can't believe I'm actually meant to be here
And I'm so high on misery
Can't you see?

I've lost myself. You tried to reach me but you just can't help me. You tried to save me, it wont work this time.

I'm bound by fear of being trapped. I'm falling faster, fade to black. Something's standing in my way, hoping for better days. Searching..for serenity. Standing..edge of reality. -FIR

I'm always searching
For serenity
And I'm always standing
On the edge of reality

Am I getting hallucinations, are my eyes playing tricks on me? Coz I've been seeing things that I can't really decide are real or not. And my dreams, they haunt me even when I'm awake. I thought nightmares were bad. These aren't just nightmares, they're empty dreams that somehow creep me out. A lot.

I close my eyes to see a freaky girl with white-out eyes just swaying her head from left to right. I hear that haunting song the lady on the rocking chair sang. Evil words I can't make out. I see creepy girls everywhere I go and I don't know if they're there or not. I'm starting to freak myself out.

And being in the room alone, I can't decide if it's a good or bad thing.

iwakeupinthemiddleofthenighttoscaremyselfbacktosleep.